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sometimes i have these really strange moments where my mood will suddenly switch - but not into another mood. just a feeling of nothing. i will feel like a walking husk of a human for an extended period of time, and i'm not entirely sure why.

it is how i 'feel' as of typing this, and it's just. really strange. i keep crying but i dont know why. there is no feeling there. there are no thoughts there to cry about. maybe there is sorrow buried deep within this null feeling, but i cannot tell.

i dont even feel like myself. i wasnt even afraid of the dark. theres truly no feeling within my body - mentally.

it is probably some form of dissociation. i dont know.